I stand backstage in a state of terror. I’m no stranger to the anxiety that creeps into my everyday life – suddenly I can’t catch my breath, and I’m not even sure what brought it on – but this is different. This is true fight or flight stuff. It is my first performance of my solo show Perfect Love at the United Solo Festival in September 2018. I am about to publicly confess some hard truths in a way I have never done before by reenacting scenes from my past which include sexual assault and abuse.